Monday, October 31, 2011

just now ...

all i ever wanted was some peace of mind ... is it too much to ask for ?

Friday, October 21, 2011

I'll take you ...




Sheena Mae Yap Lim 
i'll take you will all that you are
with your complications
your pain
your secrets
your past
your longings
and dreams

i will take you completely
without exemptions

because i love you so much ♥ :-*

I LOVE YOU




















My dearest wife,


Sheena Mae, I love you then, I love you now, I love you still, always have ... always will.


Your loving husband,



Jay-Jay

till now ...

i thought i was over it ... i got over the hurt ... i got over the pain ...
but no ... it wasnt over yet ... 
so here i am still hurting ... still with the pain ... 
but i cant help feeling this way ... 
i love her so much ... 
and i can bear this ... 
because i love her so ... 

Monday, October 17, 2011

uncertain smile ...

a broken soul
stares from a pair of watery eyes
uncertain emotions
for some uncertain smile ... 


- Uncertain Smile (The The, Soul Mining)
My past is my past ...
it made me who I am ...
I have no regrets ...
I wouldn't change a thing ...
I just don't live there anymore.

the hurting ...


Is it an horrific dream
Am I sinking fast
Could a person be so mean
As to laugh and laugh
On my own
Could you ease my load
Could you see my Pain
Could you please explain
The Hurting

help me forget ...

help me forget ... help me forget the hurt ... help me remove the pain ...

Friday, October 14, 2011

thank you ..

another year has passed ... 



THANK YOU to all my wonderful family and friends for your birthday wishes. 
My day is so much more brighter knowing that you're all a part of it. 
And most of all I thank GOD, for the best gift ever ... the gift was in advance though ... and it was Sheena Mae ... 
I Love You All !!! 

i am lost and i am found ...

2010 ended with a blow ...

2011 started with a bang as i left my wife for someone much better and someone more understanding and most of all someone i can trust ... someone i feel very much much much comfortable with that i have no more inhibitions from her ... yes no inhibitions ...

we've been for six months now, and our relationship has been a roller coaster ride, but then after each ride, there is much more to our relationship, we learned to be more patient, understanding and always to standby each other no matter what ...

and i feel great this time ... i found myself again ...

Thursday, October 6, 2011

i am what i am ...

I AM ME! For those who understand, no explanation is needed. For those who do not understand, no explanation is possible.

and so ...

and so this is it ...
this is how it should happen ...
does it really have to be this way ...
no i wont allow it ...
and i will do my best ...
no matter what it takes ...
even it costs me my own life ...